Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 5:29 PM
The song "Auld Lang Syne" has come a long way from its Scottish roots and is roughly translated as "old long since", or “for (the sake of) old times.”
Singing it as we bring in the New Year should remind us that times and experience past are good indicators to us of what things we should seek or avoid as we begin again, renewing another year.
Accepting change is probably one of life’s most difficult tasks. Even positive change sometimes produces in us feelings of grief and regret. However, it is the contrast of experiencing something new that allows us to grow …EVOLVE!...in heart, mind and spirit.
There have been things in my Second Life that...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 8:52 AM
You don't have to live in the United States to offer Thanksgiving today. Today and EVERYday, should be an opportunity to develop an attitude of gratitude. Take a moment RIGHT NOW, to be aware of the things in your life you can be grateful for, and GIVE THANKS!
If you are unsure, start with: the means to have a computer and access to the internet; the ability to connect with people from various cultures, backgrounds, religious & spiritual affiliations, and socioeconomic lifestyles; the ability interact with individuals at various stages of maturity and to teach, learn and grow; and for your willingness to build relationships with REAL...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 1:50 PM
Song of the Moment: “Closer” by Shawn McDonaldhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8t16b2yMqME
Make Up Your MIND… Just say YES…
As simple as it sounds, when at a crossroad making a choice can be an overwhelming experience. More often than not, the stumble is in reflecting and realizing that we already know what choice must be made, but must find the courage to make it. Until we come to the place where we can say “no” to something that has not worked and “yes” to something other than that, we spin in circles sometimes spiraling into some of our darkest life periods. The goal of life is to say YES to those things in our path that...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 8:05 PM
Day makes way for night
Darkness emerges from the light
Flowers of midnight bloom
The petals slumber, fold to cocoon.
Creatures of night rejoice in song
Their voices familiar to those who belong
Exclusive of the spirits of day
The souls of twilight now guide the way.
From the bliss of joy to the depths of sorrow
Without the day, night could not bring tomorrow
The moon and his fiery bride entwined
Give birth to both darkness and sunshine.
by Acuminous (c) August 2009
written for the in-world Egbe Akowe Writing Gro...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 8:03 PM
Ding Ding! gasp, swallow
I feel so hollow
My heart races, I look down
Its not him… “Damn!”
my smile fades to a frown
I don’t know why I can’t stop thinking ‘bout you
Maybe it’s the things you say, the way you do, what you do
When you’re away, thoughts of you relentlessly taunt my mind
I’m like a fiend searching for a drug I cannot find.
Ding Ding! gasp, swallow
Close my eyes and breath deep
“hey sista, girl how you been…”
Damn, how disappointing…
I respond “nothing much girlfriend.”
Minutes, hours, trying to pass the time away
Watching my screen closely for a sign you’ll log on today
Seems my only existence in this virtual space
...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 8:00 PM
Still in the darkness
I Am
Peace
A thought from within
To Be
Free to feel, to experience
To LIVE
In that moment awakened
I Am
Real
I wear the mask, a shell of my Self
Peace now pieces, the stillness forgotten
I birth
Duality
Living In Fearless Emotion
I feel the intangible
Perceive the imperceptible
Joy, pain
Courage, FEAR
Good and
EVIL, I LIVE
Until the darkness returns
The weakness underlying my strength
Transcendence
Brings sweet surrender
Each piece I re-collect
Remember
Remove the mask
and return…
by Acuminous (c) July 2009
written for the in-world Egbe Akowe Writing Gr...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 7:58 PM
It feels as though a lifetime has passed.
Broken, bent and beatten
Like a child in the wilderness,
I searched the tree tops and river banks,
brush and meadow
mountain and valley
pieces of me, longing for you.
Guided by voices,
My mind a map of words,
I turned left and turned right – holding my breath
Hoping that soon… just a bit farther
Your arms would be waiting.
The days, months, the years passed by
Time so fast, yet so still
The wilderness no longer wild,
Became my solitude.
i am one with it
but still feel the longing and struggle on,
seeking your grace, your comfort
…to at last find you.
Now
engulfed by the monotony
My heart weary...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 8:14 PM
Originally appeared in Teleport Magazine (2008) No Longer Published
Acu,I believe I have found my soul mate, thanks to Second Life. J My SL girlfriend lives in another country and I don’t know how else we would have found each other! She and I have been at it non-stop for almost three months and it has been one of the best relationships I think I’ve ever had RL or SL. She and I have complicated situations in real life and enjoy unplugging from all that when we are together in-world. Logging in to see her is truly the highlight of my day. The problem is, Acu, that I spend a lot of time in-world, sometimes 8 to 10 hours a day. This is an improvement because there were times when we first started dating that I was in world 12 or more hours. We haven’t shared RL information and have...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 8:10 PM
Originally appeared in Teleport Magazine (2008) No Longer Published
Acu, I am currently married real life (RL) and my husband is unaware of a relationship I have developed in Second Life (SL). I have been struggling with feelings of guilt around my SL Relationship and it is affecting my mood and social interactions in RL. Although my RL marriage is ok, these feelings I am having confuse me so much. I know I am only supposed to ask one question, but I’m hoping you can help me with a few. Traditional morality aside, what are the harms associated with SL relationships that are secret from RL relationships? If no harm is done to the RL relationship is it a problem? Is it possible for no harm to be done by SL affairs? Is this any difference if there are affairs of the heart,...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 7:59 PM
Originally appeared in Teleport Magazine (2009) No Longer Published
Acu, My SL partner and I have been dating for about a month and things were going really well. His cultural background is different than mine, but I did not discover this until I was head over heels for him. I was surprised at this revelation because I would have never dated him in RL, but have learned that we have SO much in common. Recently, however, he seems distracted and irritable all the time and I am wondering if the honeymoon is over. When we are exploring the grid there are times when he suddenly becomes quiet and on more than one occasion I went to send him an offline message only to realize he was logged on already. This has been the source of much discontent in our relationship and I feel like things are...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 3:04 PM
Originally appeared in Metaverse Messenger Magazine (M2)
Dear Acu,
I am a RL married woman who has been in Second Life for over a year. In that time I have met a MUCH younger, single man who has helped me to see life from a totally new perspective. He lives in another country (which is good or I would have been in big trouble by now) so the time zone difference means I am on really late at night sometimes. When I finally make it to bed, I feel like I’ve been out sleeping around as I try to slip into bed without waking my husband. I feel embarrassed that I am coming to bed so late and hope he doesn’t realize how long I have been awake and online. I know I probably shouldn’t be doing this, but I feel so much love for this young man. I also feel bad because I worry that the time he is spending...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 3:03 PM
Originally appeared in Metaverse Messenger Magazine (M2)
Acu,
I have been in SL for about 9 months now. It seems to me that there is SO much drama around relationships here that I really don’ t understand why I have stayed this long. From my SL friends to my SL boyfriend, everyone has these issues and every time I turn around someone has an attitude, or is leaving SL or whatever. It’s an emotional roller coaster. I feel like the only way to avoid drama is to isolate myself and that really doesn’t make sense since I come to SL to socialize and interact with people. Surely everyone doesn’t have this much drama in their second life. I’m wondering what I am doing wrong to keep finding myself in the middle of conflict, and it wouldn’t be so bad if it wasn’t affecting my real life. I’ll...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 3:02 PM
Originally appeared in Metaverse Messenger Magazine (M2)
Acu,
I am currently involved in a committed SL partnership that is beginning to break down. Before we got together, he was involved with other women. For that reason we kept the relationship “friendly” although we’d cuddle and kiss from time to time. Over time, my feelings for him began to grow and I felt that I needed him to commit to a monogamous relationship with me, or to move on, and I told him so. He was not ready to settle down at the time, and respected what I felt I needed and we stop talking for some time. Later, we reconnected and soon after he asked me to partner. I was somewhat apprehensive about it because of our history and felt jealous of the relationships he maintained with his ex-girlfriends. Despite this, I accepted...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 2:59 PM
Originally appeared in Metaverse Messenger Magazine(M2)
Hey Acu,
I’m not really looking for advice, I just want to vent. I really don’t get this whole idea of integrating SL with RL and relationships. I mean its Second Life, not eHarmony or Match.com. I keep hearing people talk about how they feel so lost because SL affects their real life, blah-blah-blah. My second life is just that a SECOND (and separate) life. I am not my avatar, they are separate and apart from one another. I have a REAL life and when I come to SL, it’s to live out fantasies and experiment with things I might not be as willing to explore in real life. I could always try these things in real life of course, but I DON’T WANT to. SL is much easier to access and is a lot cheaper to build my dreams in. I guess I am different...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 2:56 PM
Originally appeared in Metaverse Messenger Magazine (M2)
Acu,
I have recently left a long-term relationship that started in SL, but ended in RL. In SL our relationship was wonderful. Our connection was completely unexpected. I entered SL to explore virtual real estate opportunities and he to explore ways to bring his RL business into SL. We enjoyed spending time together exploring and pose ball hoping (wink) Within a few months we were collaborating on more than just a business partnership, but a real life commitment. We started chatting via messenger, then cam-ing and calls via skype. We partnered in SL and held a beautiful wedding ceremony. After 10 months of a wonderfully romantic online union, we decided to move in together RL. He moved from the UK to my apartment on the East Coast....
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 8:27 AM
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Loving God ... we are so grateful for your presence in around and through usWe can feel the love of those lost 10 years ago this day, as their bodies have left us, but their souls never die. We pray for peace in the hearts of their families, especially their children so that they are better able to understand your Divine Grace and Will.We are knowing and affirming your Love is with us always and that although we do not always know the greater plan, that it is your love that provides what is needed for the greater good of mankind.We pray for...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 5:38 AM
I was having a conversation recently with an SL resident who was essentially saying that she does not understand why people take relationships in Second Life so seriously. Her relationship in world is strictly sexual as she enjoys the delights of intellectual dialogue and the excitement that is experienced when another person describes in great detail the way the sexual fantasy makes them feel in the tangible world. She appreciates living her SL without the messy details of being in a committed relationship. She firmly declared “Its role play, not Match.com!
I don’t know that I agree with that. When newcomers to the grid visit the Second Life...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 7:31 PM
Let me begin by saying that as I offer my opinions about the veracity of the Illuminati, it is surely tainted by my own spiritual beliefs. I am not supposing that I am the end all be all on any subject and would never tell you what to think. I will however give you some things to think about and hope that if you are moved to strongly invest in ideas in favor of or against what you are about to read, that you will take the time to read or/and or listen to what is out there and come to your own opinion. Accepting what someone else has identified as “truth” is sort of what got us into this mess. We need to be more proactive in thinking for ourselves....
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 5:51 AM
He comes in the nightShe draws back her curtainHis words are convincingStill she feels uncertain
He says "No drama"and has no shame"Don't hate the playerHate the game.."
What she does not see Behind the screenA human typistand low self esteem
His ego is grandWhen his face is hiddenand he'll go to placesThat were once forbidden
His philosphy of lifeReveals his true weaknessHis time in life spentWith little achievement
His friends list revealedHe reads like a bookIf she is fast and easyHe drops the hook
but a Man, proudly certainwill sets his sights highand will not settlefor a quickly raised thigh
Great effort producesThe highest aquisitionHis...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 6:35 PM
i am finally saved, i declare outright
of course that's if you forget last night
two steps forward, three steps back
indecision keeps my binds intact
i forget about you every day
fighting the need to stay away
wasting time like a vagabond
turning back, the inevitable prolonged
emptier than a hollow tree
chasm of loneliness inside of me
the voices argue
a critical debate
am i coming or going
is this really our fate
i ask AGAIN, "do you want More?"
quite aware of what is in store
out of stock
out of time
wounded heart
broken bind
stop, no, leave, stay
please take the pain away
memories crying "i love him so"
heart longing for healing...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 11:04 AM
Divine Spirit, One of Life source and supply, I am humbled by your awesome presence. I am grateful for the challenges that serve as spiritual teachings and lessons allowing us to grow closer in our understanding of Divine Purpose. I call upon Divine Order for those affected by the Tornados in the Southern US recently and pray they are open and receptive to hearing your guidance as they move forward in restoring their lives. I call upon Divine Courage and pray for healing of the mind, body and spirit of those recovering as they gather the strength to being the process of renewal. Remind them Sweet Spirit that when things fall apart it offers...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 1:08 AM
Someone once told me, when a person is showing (or telling) you who they truly are, you need to listen. In a world of fantasy, where we are seeking connection to something other than what we what we are used to, the line between what is real and what is only in our mind is blurred. Its like living in a lucid dream where things seem real, but aren’t quite right …and that “not right-ness” is what helps us to remember we are dreaming. Sometimes we want something so badly, that we shape this reality into something it is not, as though trying to carve an idol from papier-mâché’. It may stand up initially; however, as it is exposed... the fragile nature...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 1:00 AM
Broken wingsCause my unrestEver lowerForever falling…Fearfully
Resting upon Infinite OceanDrifting upon the wavesIn the darknessThe tides carry me…Aimlessly
Each day a stagnant shiftingWatching tides wash ashoreNo storm in these watersSo quiet their turning stale…Agony
Though water aboundMy thirst unquenchedI am restless I am sinking…Slowly
And then he arrives
He is the sunVibrant and hot…forbiddenRays caressing each crest Drawing his light…Upon Me
As he fades into the darkThe night brings coldDarkness replaces his warmthThoughts of his heat…Ecstasy
The ache boils over meBrings new life to these wingsThe attention gives new meaning…To each...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 8:45 PM
What is it that I want from himI question over and over againI know I’m not the only oneAnd we agreed “its just for fun”
But this now is more than just playI fell for him and lost my wayForgot of what I’m truly madeAnd watched my inhibitions fade
Not knowing what I truly seekI got caught up and in too deepMy heart’s desire to be his choiceAlthough this need I could not voice
I feared that he would turn awayBound by my flesh, asked him to stayHe learned my needs and met them wellThe longing in my chest he’d quellAs long as I could wait my turnHe’s not the first, I’ll never learn
What is it that I want from himI question over and over againI...
Posted by Acuminous Watanabe on 3:47 AM
I can’t sleep. Its 5:30AM and my mind is racing so I decided I might as well get up. I have been restless since yesterday. I met someone, a very nice person who is reengaging after having left Second Life a few years ago. He had deleted his avatar at that time, appreciating that he “had to” because his “real life” depended upon it. Pretty drastic, but not unusual. Like so many others, the allure of this place called to him again and he is back, ready for a second round of immersion in this virtual space.
I meet lots of people, on regular basis. It’s one aspect of Second Life that I truly enjoy. I love people, and when I found the grid, I...
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