Thursday, November 24, 2011

Thanks Giving (2011)

You don't have to live in the United States to offer Thanksgiving today. Today and EVERYday, should be an opportunity to develop an attitude of gratitude. Take a moment RIGHT NOW, to be aware of the things in your life you can be grateful for, and GIVE THANKS!

If you are unsure, start with: the means to have a computer and access to the internet; the ability to connect with people from various cultures, backgrounds, religious & spiritual affiliations, and socioeconomic lifestyles; the ability interact with individuals at various stages of maturity and to teach, learn and grow; and for your  willingness to build relationships with REAL people, as they see themselves in their grandest visions. Be grateful for the ability to explore your deepest and innermost dreams and fantasies and growing in an understanding that you can manifest your destiny in both virtual and tangible worlds...

Today and everyday, I am grateful for the relationships that bring meaning to my life. I am grateful for the love that is abound. Always available... Always accessible... 

Today and EVERYday, I am grateful for YOU!

With Love Always...XOXO

Friday, November 18, 2011

SL/RL Synthesis Note (45): "…On Being Ambiguous…"

Song of the Moment: “Closer” by Shawn McDonald

Make Up Your MIND…
    Just say YES…

As simple as it sounds, when at a crossroad making a choice can be an overwhelming experience. More often than not, the stumble is in reflecting and realizing that we already know what choice must be made, but must find the courage to make it. Until we come to the place where we can say “no” to something that has not worked and “yes” to something other than that, we spin in circles sometimes spiraling into some of our darkest life periods. The goal of life is to say YES to those things in our path that call to the joy in our hearts,  and then accepting that it also means saying “No” to other paths available even when they may provide temporary relief to a choice we may be struggling with. We can only be in one place at one time, and so we must walk one path at a time.

Living a “Second Life” of course can complicate these matters because you can, in effect, walk two paths at once. The challenge though is that even with 2 lives (or 3 or 4 dependant upon how many alternate lives you may be living with various avatars) there is only one human operator and therefore you can only be “present” and be available as one “self” at a time. Trying to juggle several paths at once will never allow you to fully be “present” to one goal. To live and enjoy it; to contemplate it and discover new ways to navigate it; to move swiftly toward the fulfillment of it. Straddling two choices IS also a choice, akin to riding with one of each feet on two different tracks. Ultimately what works as a parallel ride will still bring you to a place of separation and you must decide which direction you want to go. Tangibly or spiritually two tracks are never intended to run parallel forever... why would there be a need for both?

We make choices all day, every day for the duration of our lives. Life IS but a series of choices, one after another, moving us toward more experiences, maturity and wisdom. In relationships, sometimes it is the choice another has made, that puts us in the precarious situation of then having to make a choice of our own. We sometimes get stuck, when we are unable to accept the choice another has made, and hold on to the hope that they will change their mind. The pain of waiting, then ensues sometimes moving us to do and be things we might never had considered, in hopes that the person will choose again … and say “yes” to you once more. What is it you are living in the meantime? What is it that you must say “No” to in your life, that might bring you to a happier place than you are experiencing while “in wait”. The reality is, whatever it is you are saying “yes” to precludes many other options. Conversely, when you do say “yes” to something, it creates a pathway toward that goal for you, and if you are saying “yes” to a closed door, there really isn’t must distance for the wear unless the person behind it chooses to open it. Do you really want a life that is lived contingent upon the actions of another? …I’m just sayin’… Coming to the realization that a choice must be made in and of itself can be an epiphany moment. Making the choice, however, can be a long, arduous process that puts our life on hold…and what a sad, isolated existence that can become!

When we are born, we leave that comfortable symbiotic space that is the womb, and are delivered into infinite possibilities. Life becomes a series of choices by which we are narrowing down the prospects into a series of paths that slowly converge into what we call life. Early on our caretakers give us the tools we will use to carve our lives into our personal existence. Our eulogy then becomes a recap of the paths we’ve chosen and our life’s hope that each road has led to happiness and fulfillment. Each choice brings us closer to a more clearly defined path shaping our sense of purpose and …our relationships.

Its time… NOW… CHOOSE …and LIVE … Stop procrastinating…

Just say “YES!”


Friday, November 11, 2011

New Beginnings... (a poem)

Day makes way for night
Darkness emerges from the light
Flowers of midnight bloom
The petals slumber, fold to cocoon.

Creatures of night rejoice in song
Their voices familiar to those who belong
Exclusive of the spirits of day
The souls of twilight now guide the way.

From the bliss of joy to the depths of sorrow
Without the day, night could not bring tomorrow
The moon and his fiery bride entwined
Give birth to both darkness and sunshine.

by Acuminous (c) August 2009

written for the in-world Egbe Akowe Writing Group

He's Back...Yeah! (a poem)

Ding Ding! gasp, swallow
I feel so hollow
My heart races, I look down
Its not him… “Damn!”
   my smile fades to a frown

I don’t know why I can’t stop thinking ‘bout you
Maybe it’s the things you say, the way you do, what you do
When you’re away, thoughts of you relentlessly taunt my mind
I’m like a fiend searching for a drug I cannot find.

Ding Ding! gasp, swallow
Close my eyes and breath deep
“hey sista, girl how you been…”
Damn, how disappointing…
I respond “nothing much girlfriend.”

Minutes, hours, trying to pass the time away
Watching my screen closely for a sign you’ll log on today
Seems my only existence in this virtual space
  is planning, plotting, negotiating…feels like an endless chase.
Its a game, with no winner
These thoughts…desires…cravings, make me a sinner

Sapiosexuality at its finest…
Mmmm, pleasure for the mind
Lick my lips at each thought of you,
Each thought another bind

It’s all about you
Pixelated pleasure, virtual yet so real
It’s all about me
The way your words make me feel
It’s all about we
The fantasies so sweet
 like honey dripping from the keys
My eyes crave a treat.

Ding Ding! gasp, swallow
A flash across the screen
“hey, how you been”
I moan then startle, not knowing what to say.
I pause, breath a moment,
He’s back…yeah!
I smile, position myself, place my fingers on the keys
Time to play…

by Acuminous (c) April 2009
written for the in-world Egbe Akowe Writing Group

to LIVE (a poem)

Still in the darkness
I Am

A thought from within
To Be
Free to feel, to experience

In that moment awakened
I Am
I wear the mask, a shell of my Self

Peace now pieces, the stillness forgotten
I birth

Living In Fearless Emotion
I feel the intangible
Perceive the imperceptible
Joy, pain
Courage, FEAR
Good and

Until the darkness returns
The weakness underlying my strength
Brings sweet surrender
Each piece I re-collect
Remove the mask
and return…

by Acuminous (c) July 2009
written for the in-world Egbe Akowe Writing Group

One Enchanted Moment (a poem)

It feels as though a lifetime has passed.

Broken, bent and beatten
Like a child in the wilderness,
I searched the tree tops and river banks,
brush and meadow
mountain and valley
pieces of me, longing for you.

Guided by voices,
My mind a map of words,
I turned left and turned right – holding my breath
Hoping that soon… just a bit farther
Your arms would be waiting.

The days, months, the years passed by
Time so fast, yet so still
The wilderness no longer wild,
Became my solitude.
i am one with it
 but still feel the longing and struggle on,
seeking your grace, your comfort
…to at last find you.

engulfed by the monotony
My heart weary and filled with fear.
The screams of my mind remind me
…i am not yet worthy.
Thoughts shrouding secrets of my heart.

No longer able, full of resentment and disgust,
I fall to my knees and cry out to you—
my arms reach desperately,
As I stare into nothingness
 through tear soaked eyelids
and call your name

“LOVE…why do you forsake me?
  I surrender…please release me!”

I close my eyes,
pressing my warm face
to the cool, moist ground
and in that moment
I Am

My heart is filled with
The secrets of trees’ whispers… “now, yes Now”
The hidden words of birds singing “Now, yes Now”
The quiet release of the rivers’ babbling “Now, Yes NOW”

Pieces now One,
I Am One

written for the in-world Egbe Akowe Writing Group (c) July 2009

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