"Struggle Ain't No Sleepin' Dog" a poem

i am finally saved, i declare outright of course that's if you forget last night two steps forward, three steps back indecision keeps my binds intact i forget about you every day fighting the need to stay away wasting time like a vagabond turning back, the inevitable prolonged emptier than a hollow tree chasm of loneliness inside of me the voices argue a critical debate am i coming or going is this really our fate i ask AGAIN,  "do you want More?" quite aware of what is in store out of stock out of time wounded heart broken bind stop, no, leave, stay please take the pain away memories crying "i love him so" heart longing for healing...

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Prayer for Tornado Victims (Southern United States)

Divine Spirit, One of Life source and supply, I am humbled by your awesome presence. I am grateful for the challenges that serve as spiritual teachings and lessons allowing us to grow closer in our understanding of Divine Purpose. I call upon Divine Order for those affected by the Tornados in the Southern US recently and pray they are open and receptive to hearing your guidance as they move forward in restoring their lives. I call upon Divine Courage and pray for healing of the mind, body and spirit of those recovering as they gather the strength to being the process of renewal. Remind them Sweet Spirit that when things fall apart it offers...

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SL/RL Synthesis Note (43): Finding Satisfaction

Someone once told me, when a person is showing (or telling) you who they truly are, you need to listen. In a world of fantasy, where we are seeking connection to something other than what we what we are used to, the line between what is real and what is only in our mind is blurred. Its like living in a lucid dream where things seem real, but aren’t quite right …and that “not right-ness” is what helps us to remember we are dreaming. Sometimes we want something so badly, that we shape this reality into something it is not, as though trying to carve an idol from papier-mâché’. It may stand up initially; however, as it is exposed... the fragile nature...

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...Singed... (a poem)

Broken wingsCause my unrestEver lowerForever falling…Fearfully Resting upon Infinite OceanDrifting upon the wavesIn the darknessThe tides carry me…Aimlessly Each day a stagnant shiftingWatching tides wash ashoreNo storm in these watersSo quiet their turning stale…Agony Though water aboundMy thirst unquenchedI am restless I am sinking…Slowly And then he arrives He is the sunVibrant and hot…forbiddenRays caressing each crest Drawing his light…Upon Me As he fades into the darkThe night brings coldDarkness replaces his warmthThoughts of his heat…Ecstasy The ache boils over meBrings new life to these wingsThe attention gives new meaning…To each...

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"Thirst" (a poem)

What is it that I want from himI question over and over againI know I’m not the only oneAnd we agreed “its just for fun” But this now is more than just playI fell for him and lost my wayForgot of what I’m truly madeAnd watched my inhibitions fade Not knowing what I truly seekI got caught up and in too deepMy heart’s desire to be his choiceAlthough this need I could not voice I feared that he would turn awayBound by my flesh, asked him to stayHe learned my needs and met them wellThe longing in my chest he’d quellAs long as I could wait my turnHe’s not the first, I’ll never learn What is it that I want from himI question over and over againI...

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SL/RL Synthesis Note (42): "Going Home"

I can’t sleep. Its 5:30AM and my mind is racing so I decided I might as well get up. I have been restless since yesterday. I met someone, a very nice person who is reengaging after having left Second Life a few years ago. He had deleted his avatar at that time, appreciating that he “had to” because his “real life” depended upon it. Pretty drastic, but not unusual. Like so many others, the allure of this place called to him again and he is back, ready for a second round of immersion in this virtual space. I meet lots of people, on regular basis. It’s one aspect of Second Life that I truly enjoy. I love people, and when I found the grid, I...

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