One Too (a Poem)

I lie here, face wet the pillow tear stained My heart feels so hollow Enfolded with pain So tired of longing I pray for release My thoughts feed the darkness I've no sense of peace My worth again measured by my place in your life Living secondary Brings some comfort from strife When life goes wrong, you come to me I'm always here, I'm always free Always longing, I know not to ask Better than nothing, better than last I must accept my place in line I am not first Neither three nor seven nor nine Second means victory isn't my fate but I will get my turn, so I patiently wait In the silence, my mind begins to wonder if you're even aware of this burden I am under Turning onto my back tears stream down my face I question my value I question this race I question my purpose I question yours...

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Synthesis Note (36): "A Lesson in Humility"

Song of the Moment: “Insane” Tamara Wellons  (lyrics below) A Lesson in Humility Trying to juggle two lives can be a crazy experience. The demands can be overwhelming. In recent months, I have felt more and more like I am going insane. Have you ever feIt that you’re trying to do the best you can, but often feel like it is never enough? I ask myself, that for all I try to be for others, why is life so difficult for ME? I have tried with great effort to search internally for the source of these feelings… to find and fix them, so that I can get on with my life in a happy and productive way. I am realizing that PRIDE, may be the culprit and that my understanding of what it means to be prideful, especially when in relationship, may have been significantly off. I was talking to one of my...

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